Nothing more than feelings

I don't know if it's the new diet, or if it's that time of the month, or what. It's hard to know when I'm ovulating since I'm nursing and don't have a period. But last night I was in a very mad mood. My husband said something to me that wasn't mean or rude at all. But then I had to leave for a Young Men/Young Women activity (I'm a leader in our youth program) and was stewing over it all the way there. Then I realized I was really angry and started to play out getting into tiffs with various people at the activity. I was just really in that "bring it on" mood, just waiting for someone to say something wrong.
It was a great activity night. We played games and volleyball and pictionary. I got to take out a lot of aggression on the ball, which was good and by the end of the hour and a half I was no longer angry, but wasn't really happy either.
Then I got a call from my sister that they got the house they were trying to buy and they were moving in. I was so happy, by the time I got home I was in the best mood ever.
Unofrtunately, when I walked through the door my 7 week old decided to be in a bad mood and began screaming. So my life for the last couple hours before I finally dozed off with her on my tummy was occupied with pacifying the baby. So is the life of a new Mommy.
Unfortunately, though, now this morning I'd say I'm feeling a little sad and unmotivated.
Maybe I should try to pay less attention to myself. That's far too many emotions to feel in a 24 hr period.
All these feelings and emotions definitely take a toll on dieting.
When I'm angry I love to eat things I shouldn't and have an "I'll show you!" type of attitude. Like I'm going to show the food who's boss.
"That's right, cupcake! I know I shouldn't eat you but I'm going to anyway. Because I am my own person and I can do whatever it is I want whenever I want. And I want you! Right Now!" Nom. Nom. Nom.
That was last night.
Oh boy, it should be a fun day.
In a good note, I took a long walk with a friend yesterday, pushed two boys on a swing for about fifteen minutes, and played volleyball. Very active. Very good.
Today I'm supposed to be going to In N Out with my other girlfriends. Hopefully I won't let my emotions control my decisions today.
Speaking of, I need to get this grumpy body of mine up and moving to help the kids to school.